.Winter story.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

2 predictions i gave this relationship.

She still have a bf and her mind weaved.

She Already broke up with her bf and now finding another.

i don't really care cause life's not about finding a perfect life partner, but to find one that grow old with you and build the paper house steps by steps into a solid home with you which brings you memories to talk about in the old days.

I may be easily fall in love with any girls , but once i fall in love, i give everything that i can do for her and promise my Time and soul to be by her side.
Now, after reflecting my past relationship i can swear i have not fall in love with anyone, W___ or any rumours thats pasting around. Cause simply, no one has yet to fill that hole in me.
All the past experience that i had will only make me harder and harder to get into relationships.

Interested did not mean i fall in love, but just if i should just give love another try when i failed so many times.

Haha sometimes, i think it's so foolish and i feel like laughing at myself, haha. foolish young boy?

Love is confusing, that i can say?

Reflecting on past relationships after my last gf?

3 years had past, how many times i tried to stand up and go after a relationship that i feel worth for my life? haha how many times i have failed or maybe how many percent? 100% Failures.

First was L_____, i was too afraid to tell her my love? so i showed through actions, the breakfast i promised you? The birthday that i put in so much effort .
so she did not know and went away with a Butch ? no one would ever understand these feelings?

Second was S_ ____, every occasions that i see you, i promise to send you home. you love cookies, i promise to buy for you whenever u're running out of it. i Changed to drink 7 up when i dislike. i stay awake so that i can make sure you are not disturbed when u're asleep when going home? I feel so bad whenever you're staying out late and i can't promise you a transport home, hence i disturb my brothers and friends so that u will reach home safe? The pictures i took when u 're sleeping that i want to surprise you, but this will never happen anymore? you ran away with not anyone but one of the close bro i had when i am feeling the worst. how hard more can this hit my emotions and heart?

Another sad story? when you forget to take your shoes i bought it down for you but you took for a slave and i should do it? When i spoil your waterbottle i change the brand of bottle that you are using and bought a extra cap for you in case you spoil it yourself. When you come towards me and hand me that banana skin and walk away? i throw it like i should do it? When you msg me and tell me you need to get something from army market, i never think and answered yes? when i slept only 3 hours and wake up for the trip. i bought not only one that you should return to your friend for that one you spoil ? but i bought 2 cause i want you to have one for yourself but not using other people's?

and all the other small small things that i had done is stupid and unless.
how foolish i am?
haha, Maybe i won't do all this anymore for anyone, i shall think for myself first and be self fish ?

And all those relationships that i saw and heard had slowly made me to feel disgusted.
Too be too good was never to be a good thing that i found on a relationship cause another party always took it for granted but my believe is, when i love you means my everything is yours no matter how you treat it.
I will never initiate the next relationship that i am or will be having, simply cause i hope you can ensure me and show me by initiating the first few steps to show me that you're willing to sacrifice and after which i will take the rest of the steps i should.

I may not be rich,
I may not be good looking,
I may not have a good family background,
I may not be sweet,
But what i can promise is that my heart and soul will always be ready for you whenever you need me.

This entry may be stupid and pointless,
but it's all from my heart and how i felt at this point in time.

5.34am end.
Sign off~ Pin wen.

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