Thursday, December 27, 2007
okie, 24th christmas eve, woke up and rush over to boon lay , suppose to reach 2.30pm, but late for awhile, sorry. went for a meaningful session at city havest church at jurong for a chirstmas skit play, watched and find it nice , funnny and professional. But some how the message is to say that this christmas, "give" and love, alright i like it weird but which is true , you are there and is living such a good life better than others so we must give or help in which we can do. after which went over to amk to meet great friends. they wanted to watch the legend, i rush over and find out that all of them had a partner and i don't, but i don wish to sit alone so i bought 2 tickets feeel so sad, asked people to accompany me, but some hwo can't find , but i remembered i called her, lin but sadly she's still with.... and i think somehow the whole relationship of me and her has changed. life is like that. so nvm , decided to sit alone on that couple sit. but sean wee decided to come so i got a partner but after awhile quan man wants to watch , so i though of going shannnon's house to celebrate so just nice everyones' happy , so i didn't watch and went over to shannon's house, wanted to take cab , cos the time is 12 plus but great friends ssay still got train so took train over and ask chun fu and people to waited, reach and saw winnie and she say Oh they lefted only left me and you and we need to wait for fishy, so after fishy came went over to my house and i bathed, and went over to express 2000 find chun fu and people. serious feel so sad, when people seems to pin high hope on me and sometimes even press things on me and say that i'm at fault indireactly. especially those people that i cherish and really take as great people in my life. okie , life is getting more and more sad for me . after that went over to shannon's hosue and i started mixing the alcohols and while i'm trying taste, my face turned so red while every's laughing at me. sometimes i just like that yes i know so much and i need to take care of myself, but don know why sometimes i seriously feel like being a normal person that don know anything and don held any respondsibility , this word hit and make my back so heavy. had some rest and fall asleep, didn't really get a good rest.
In the morning , almost everyone looks drank, HPT drank spirit !:) then went out to eat at thomsom area, and went straight to colin's house to have our mah jong session , what the hell ,damn tired la. then played, had much fun , his house got so many hamster and makes me think back of my white hamster, i was so afriad that it will pass away so i gave to someone , cause i don't wish to see it pass away and i think i can't take care of it proberly. I remembered when i am out , i scare it will be bored, i pack my room and put it in there to play, run around the room and i place food around for it to eat and drink. after which went home , and was so damn tired, fall asleep once after bath when reach home.
then was waiting joo tat to call, then finally he called so went over to cherlyn's house and gave liting a birthday surprise, okie, i think she's darn lucky that people give her surprisealmost every year, i feel that surprise is the best present you can ever received, it takes time and your heart to plan. joo tat sang happy birthday song with the guitar which is sweet. and bought her a camera. bian and kelly , joo tat and li ting , they are all so sweet when can i have such sweet relationship.
after that went home.
Wednesday, 26th , sleep and rest around at home and went to express to meet martin ,marc, shuai hui and jia hao. saw jia hao's dog which is cute ! then meet yong jie and sebas and went over to zouk. talked about those gambling stuffs , how people lose and died, and how people win and become rich. and seriously each time i go club , i realise this thing , without money , you're an ass. and i don't know why i'm changing and becoming to face the stupid fact , and i just feel tthat i am going to change to a bad guy soon. there's no force stopping me.
thursday went out to work for the car plate thingy and went shopping , bought my 6th jacket in Zara and my first fourskin t-shirt, the KOPI-O t-shirt . finally manage to get myself something instead of the past where , i buy cookies, buy this buy that for a girl that hurt me so much. i finally realise , first person to love is yourself. And thats why My EQ is getting lower, i don care how people feel as long as i get myself save and happy. It's you guys that took me for granted that cause me to become such a person , i use to be nice and think of how you guys feel, but haha you all never even think for me and how i feel why must i think for you all ??? how? how ? how ?
The end, i still cherish the relationship and trying hard to feel for you guys and make you all happy, but each day pass, i am getting more tired and i am getting more self-centered, because you guys are selffish and only think for yourself or people that you all think worth to ? so i am an asshole that don contribute and lousy person to your life ? fine bye , bye don't be hypocrite infront of me and haha any help, i would think twice and see if i should.
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