Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Sunday, can't sleep so actually talked to Hui xin till morning and went to have breakfast with her at CWP mac. went to school and started lessons. Was damn tired, but can't sleep have to at least help the group abit so do so much research.... BUT !! FUCk !! the first time that i am angry with my team mates !! i gave her everything but soem how she presented everything by herself and covered the whole , entire presentation herself without even giving us some chance to talk !! fuck !!! i 'm seriously first timed so pissed off. so i stood there without saying anything , even my slides i gave it to someone else. And for that fucking first time that i am complaining in my RJ !After which , went straight home and seriously wanted to visit my dad, but sorry daddy , too tired le, so fell asleep at home. the, tuesday did not go school. went to help daddy pay road tax, $37, after which went to visit daddy. before that meet up with lian xin and andrew, haiz, i suddenly feel that i don't want to ask help from them anymore. after which went to town to walk walk alone , then called billy , Woot , and went K-box with him and Ruth, then saw regina !! working at K-box.. lolx. so manage to get special previllage that we could sing till 3am, the k-box close. Bought cake, and gave billy a lousy and small surprise , but hope you like it, it's your birthday, no matter how much i'll need to spend, i'll. you helped me so much when i needed that help. you are there, my brother. ! but for what ur third wish is, sorry, i can't help you fullfill it. i know you want me and melvin to be good friends again , sorry i'll still insist that i'll never be friend with a bastard. Promised. Alright , i just feel that si hong is lucky, didn't choose such a boyfriend like me cause eventually if we are together , i'll break up with you , due to such situation taht i'm *uniceffacing , haha maybe you will break up with me first , casue i believe taht you wouldn't want to face this with me . for those that do not know what i am facing now. i will say it here.
Currently my dad is in the hospital , having some major operation, hopefully he is recovering now. My finacial states now is ... sucks. i have only around 50 bucks on my pocket now. my Mrt
concession is upped on 13th oct. My phone bills are coming after me. A lawyer fees of $700 included payments need to be made before 22nd oct . i've just paid my internet bills. Everyday after school, i need visit my daddy, i am not complaining cause he is the only one that i should love. after visiting him , need to rush home to wash cloths , to homework, rj, feed my fish eat. And seriously looking for a job now, and working almost everyday if i could. everyday , i can't sleep worrying if i forget to do anything. Some times i am wandering , is this a learning experience cause god wants me to learn soemthing out of here>? Or is it that i will be in this way forever or did i did something wrong that i should be treat this way ? broken family. Broken love relationships, always get cheated when i'm so loyal to soemone. Am i too naive ? Sorry guys if i am not replying you in Msn or phone cause seriously if you know about my states now, i seriously don't know how nd whats the mood that i should that i will reply.And if you guys are angry with me , go ahead, after knowing about this fucker called melvin, seriously i don't care if you are angry or fuck, cos unless i cherish or you cherish the relationship we have, i'll see you as the next melvin so to keep myself conscience. I don't need you guys to pity cause i 'll solve everything by myself.
seriously to say , i have phobias on girls now. which ever girl that comes into my life. i'll do my part to test what you actually want and promise that , unless you take your steps first or you attracts me, i'll not take the next step to go after you. for friends , if you really treat me as friend like MELVIN. Simple to say, please don't be one of my friends, casue i have nothing for you to cheat on , i don't have money, i don't have car, i don't have girlfriends, i don't have sister or brothers, i don't have anything for you to cheat on. if you want girls, go look for melvin , he has lots of it. well:) fuck off for such friend!
Well, for real friends, take care of your self, after i solve my problems , i will get back to you guys and we shall have fun and enjoy he every moment taht we spend ! :P :)
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