Monday, 1st october, i told myself , no matter what i have to go school but ?? i seriously got no motivations to go to school, =( i've lost all my self and soul. so i went back to sleep, suddenly, macus called me and ask me if i wanna work, since i didn't go to school, i must at least i must do something to make myself filled for the day, i got no time to waste, so i went to work. Sorry macus but i went to buy toto for my dad before i report to work. I have to fullfill everythings he want. afterwhich , reached and started doing things, so many things that they are throwing andwe are like wah, the place is so small , so when they throw the things, and if there are anythings good, i just pick up and keep, macus do that too. And out of sudden, there was this stupid Cockroach which scared everyone including me .... -.- it's so drama when LIZ actually jumped on top of her Chair....Macus tried to catch it, but can't. so i saw a bag and use it and shouted !! Stop running and i caugh hold of it. seriously, i feel bad la.. don't know why.. it's a living thing after all. after work,

Finished at 7.30 and went off to see my daddy, alright i guess he's okie !! i serious hope everything would be fine, i only have him now and i can't afford to lose him. i'll work hard for you daddy. ! don't worry ! saw many NYP students there, please help me take care of him , thanks alot.

Erm after which went back to work again , met muneer and went back office to get things and went to red dots measeum packed some things and sort out name cards, which is ? erm fun playing with the cards? erm after which went home , and andrew came over to play dota for one match then went to eat at coffee shop, sorry if i everytime neevr reply msn, i feel sorry cos i went out, sorry yun fang. ! ya okie , hui xin was talking about this topic, cos i say i can't sleep,

>>> hui xin said, "aiyo, think what. think gf until cannot slp ah." alright ,i replied, i will never have a relationship. :( alright i guess so, i don wan to drag someone down and seriously how would girls come about likely a person like this." :( never mind , when some one that's willing to suffer all this with me , is the right one i'm waiting.

I'm coming up with this idea, to solve my current problem, it's a major one. It affects my life , my future and everything.

I'm feeling so lonely at home :(

Every minutes, i feel like ....

nobody can ever feel this way like i do.